The luckiest one !!

After all that had happened with me, I never thought for the best, I didn't knew that my life would take a new turn..I never knew that I would fall for someone..This new year brought happiness with itself..All my blues had blown away.. I had started smiling, laughing, giggling once again.. I was happy, happier than ever..unaware of the fact that my life was going to change completely..

'I LOVE YOU'- these were the words I messaged him..dunno how I did that.. I mean.. its weird..You are having your computer exam the very next day.. You wake up and message someone that you love that person.. and guess what?? You even get a green signal.. lolzz

I had not fallen for him at that time (he knows that very well) but somehow I got attracted. I always enjoyed talking to him.. I used to forget all my tensions when I talked to him.. My messages were always filled with 'LOL' (even today)..By February, we knew each other pretty well..we knew about one another's likes and dislikes.. As the board exams neared.. We knew each other better than words can say..

Having message chats never meant that we would ignore our studies..We studied all day.. and waited for clock to strike 11.. when we could have a chat..These 6-7 months passed like anything, celebrating our monthly anniversaries, meeting out, having conversations over the phone, not to forget late night chats..and ofcourse studying.. :P

I think my life is just perfect! We all need someone special in our lives and I know that I found that special person for myself.. :) I remember that dat when he updated his orkut profile for me..I was like 'whoa!!' and not only me but everyone else was surprised and confused.. they could not differentiate between the two profiles..It was relly nice of him..And how could I forget that day when we met out and were caught by our friends who showed that they were disappointed with us.. lolzz

Our arguements are less frequent compared to others.. we don't fight for silly things as others do.. (touchwood!!) I am really proud of having him in my life..I am the luckiest girl to have him..to have my 'shona'.. :D

He has given me everything.. his love for me cant be compared.. the commitment that he shows is really amazing (I can't believe how can anybody be committed to me.. :P)

Life was never like this.. I never enjoyed so much.. It really makes me smile when I think that there is someone on this planet who thinks of me, who care sfor me, who loves me from the bottom of his heart..

I strongly believe that I am the LUCKIEST one!!

LIFE- A jigsaw puzzle

Yes, it was my life a few years back.. atleast I thought so. I was happy with my friends. I always thought that my friends were my life and we all would be together forever. I enjoyed coming to school because school was my life and my friends..I loved them like hell.. All i wanted was to be with them. Have fun with them. I hated being at home. I called life at school as 'my life' as i could take my decisions myself.

But we all know things change, and I too changed. I was very studious, always surrounded with books, a dull girl..I wanted to be free.. but something from within stopped me.. I still don't know what it was..

I hesitated, kept quiet and observed others changing. Some of my 'friends' came to me just to take my notebooks home..or to cheat in those stupid classtests.I never minded that. I loved helping them and thought may be someday I need them and they'll be there for me!

While my mind was busy with all this, my heart, it was gone! I thought it to be love. (though it was not!!!) .I don't know how it happened but I had started liking someone like hell.I wanted to tell my friends about this.. but hesitated..even my best friend .She was an angel (she still is :) )...May be i was afraid of getting a scolding form her (she scolds me badly at times).. Well, I waited for an year, I wanted everything to happen on its own..Soon I was in a relationship..But it died out soon.. I wanted it to die because I had stopped laughing, I couldn't enjoy my life..Also, I had to undergo a constant fear of losing someone who was damn special to me!

I didn't knew that things were not the same what I thought them to be.His love was fake..all that he showed.. This breakup had shattered me completely.. I needed someone.. someone who could hold me back..I needed my 'friends'.. but I was alone! I even got a few taunting remarks from people who were nothing but a piece of shit..yes.. the same who asked for my notebooks..

I hated myself! Which I never did before.. They left me alone to bear all this..This broke my heart into pieces.. and I decided to take a revenge.. But soon I realised that this could never be me! My life was always being with my friends..I knew I could never do this to myself.. to spend life taking revenge and having grudges..I decided to change..There was a need because I had to show him that I was happy and strong! Hanging around with a fake smile was not me..pretending to be preoccupied with studies when everyone else enjoyed was not me..It was not me.. I lost myself!